A Southern Street King Earned Her Love 3 by Porscha Sterling

Author:Porscha Sterling [Sterling, Porscha]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Porscha Sterling, LLC

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“This just in. Son of megachurch Pastor Talley was beaten nearly to death and dropped off at Emory Hospital where he is currently fighting for his life. Pastor Talley made a public plea from the pulpit of his church asking for anyone who knows anything about what may have happened to his son to please come forward with the information so that the police can make an arrest.”

“Goodie for him,” Taeji said as she sucked her teeth. “He’s lucky that all he got was his ass beat after what he did.”

I didn’t say anything. And the fact that I didn’t say a word made Taeji lift her head to look at me.

“You don’t agree?” She asked the question with a frown. As if she couldn’t quite understand where my head was at.

“I don’t know what to feel, to be honest,” I admitted with a shrug. “Stephen was a fuck up in a lot of ways. But also in a lot of ways, he was good to me.”

I turned off the T.V. and then dropped my head, not wanting to look her in her eyes. It felt weak to admit it. After everything that he’d done to me, I knew that I had the green light to hate the man but, for some reason, I just didn’t.

“I know what you mean,” Taeji admitted with a sigh as she took a seat next to me. “My ex did the fuckin’ most. Talk about a narcissist. That nigga gaslighted me so much, I didn’t trust my own thoughts and feelings. Even now, I find myself questioning myself about shit that should just be common sense.” She shook her head sadly. “But, at the same time, we had so many good times. We shared so many laughs. And I know so much about his upbringing and why he’s the way he is that it makes it hard to blame him for being such a fuck up. He really didn’t have a chance.”

I nodded as tears came to my eyes. What she was saying felt so familiar because it was why I was so tortured about my feelings regarding Stephen. When it comes to a fucked up upbringing, his was really fucked up. At the beginning of our relationship, it was part of why we bonded so easily. We both were able to keep up appearances: to seem so well put together on the outside in order to cover up all of the shame and sadness on the inside. It was through our trauma that we formed such a strong bond.

“The thing is,” Taeji continued. “In giving him excuses for his shit, I forgot that I also had my own shit that I had to grow through. Kevin wasn’t the only one with a fucked up childhood. My childhood was fucked up, too. And I still managed to be a decent person and not shit on the ones who treated me the best. So, I had to learn that even though he had an excuse, he really didn’t have no excuse.

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